Mother's Day 2015

Mother's Day is a special day for me! As this is my second one, I become more and more grateful for the little blessings I have that call me "Mom" or "Mamama" everyday! A few years ago, I dreaded when Mother's Day would come around. It was a painful day for me. I could celebrate my mom and the other mothers in my life, but my heart would break a little more each year. Church was always so difficult because they always honor all the mom's with something special, and I felt alone. I was longing for something that was impossible. My dreams were out of reach and tears would flood my eyes knowing that being a mom was hard to achieve. Something so easy for other people, was extremely difficult and impossible for me. I hated my body, I was so mad at it and didn't understand how it would cause me to be filled with endometriosis, causing infertility, shattering my hopes and dreams. 

Last year the whole meaning to this day changed. I actually got to celebrate Mother's  Day as a mother. I got to kiss my babies and take them in my arms knowing that they are the only little humans that have heard my heartbeat from the inside and the outside. Becoming a mother changed my life. All those pieces that were shattered after each failed pregnancy test, after each failed procedure (besides IVF), after each Mother's Day being childless, were put back together to make my heart whole again. They make my heart fuller each day! 

Being a mother is a blessing! It's exhausting but so rewarding. I thank Heavenly Father everyday for blessing me with my boys and allowing me to be their mother. I thank Paxtin and Channing everyday for choosing me in Heaven to be their mother. I remember when we found out we were having twin BOYS, and Dusty said something that I will never forget. He said, "When I think about us having kids, it chokes me up thinking the our babies are up in Heaven and God asks 'who wants to go down and be a part of their family', and 2 little boys step forward, our sons." God trusts us to raise 2 of his amazing children and they chose us to be their family. They chose me to be their Mom and for that I am forever grateful.

I feel truly honored to hold the title of "Mom"! I love my boys unconditionally and I love being their teacher, chef, maid, nurse, chauffeur, and everything else. I love being able to spend each day with them and watch them learn and grow! I will protect them always, I will love them always, and I will be their mother....ALWAYS!!! 

Happy Mother's Day to all of you mom's out there! I hope your day is as special as you are! 

This is my all time favorite song! I find it very fitting for this special day!

The picture below I was not suppose to be in. But due to the fact that my boys were stinkers for their shoot, the only way to keep them happy was if I sat with them.