Past, Present, Future

We all know that life is full of decisions. Some are easy to make and others take a lot of praying and planning. As our 3rd and final attempt with insemination was a fail, we are faced with a huge decision on what to do next about starting a family. It's a life changing decision, emotionally and financially. It's physically exhausting for my mind and heart to know what decision will be right for Dusty and I. 

I have been faced with situations where I didn't make the right decisions. But the best decision I ever made was saying "Yes" when Dusty asked me to marry him. He has been the greatest blessing in my life, and he is my strength. He keeps me going day by day and keeps my spirits high. I know that with him by my side, and working together, we will make the right decision for our family. I want you all to know what my husband has been through with all this happening in our lives. I may have been the one in the hospital, bed ridden, and sick. But I wouldn't be where I am today if I didn't have him by my side every step of the way. He would always be there for me no matter what. He always had my bed ready, fluffed with pillows, and comfortable so my incisions from my surgeries wouldn't hurt. He always had a Sprite by my bed with my medicine so I didn't have to get up. Plus, every time he made me soup, he always picked the meat out for me (I hate meat in soup) and would bring it to me in bed. I would wake up sometimes with him just laying by me, watching me with tears in his eyes. I would ask him what he was doing and he would reply, "just watching my angel sleep!" Talk about a tear jerker. He's such a loving and sentimental husband. The late nights that I couldn't sleep he would stay up with me, holding me in his arms. Every doctor visit, he was there. Every tear I shed, he wiped it away. I wish I could express to you in words how amazing Dusty is, but I can't. I love him more than anything and I know that if we can make it with what we have been through already, we can make it through anything together.

Even though our past has made us stronger, it's time to move on to our future. "Our eyes are placed in front because it is more important to look ahead than to look back." I know whatever path Dusty and I decide to take on our next journey will be the one we are meant to be on. I know that Heavenly Father watches over us everyday, guiding us to where we need to be. I know that one day we will hold a beautiful baby in our arms, and have someone call us "Mom" and "Dad"!! Our next decision will have a huge impact on our future....