DROP like the speed of a bullet. Your heart drops and your adrenaline is pumping. Well that's a little description on how these past 5 months have been for me. The start of the roller coaster ride reminds me of my pregnancy, it felt like 5 months was forever when you're pregnant, then your babies arrive, and before you know it...they're 5 months old. Where did the time go? Did I seriously have my babies in July and it's already December? I am really baffled at this.
As I browse through pictures of the day I went to the hospital to have the babies, my eyes get huge when I see pictures of my belly. I had forgotten how HUGE I was. I miss my belly though, I miss those 4 little arms and legs inside kicking me and breaking my ribs, but I absolutely love something even more. I love when a little, chubby hand grabs my finger. I love when 4 little blue eyes just stare at me and know that I am their mommy. I love when I sing to my babies and they just grin from ear to ear (even though I can't carry a note), they love it. I love when their little chubby arms wrap around my neck and give me a big hug, most of all I absolutely LOVE being a mommy to the most adorable twin baby boys in the world!
Dusty asked me a while back what I want for Christmas, and I said, "My Christmas came in July"!! My babies are the only gift I need and have ever wanted. I thank God every day for putting His trust in me to care for these amazing babies! I am excited for their first Christmas! Even though they don't understand it, they'll just be thinking.."Why is mommy more excited than usual? Why is daddy taking so many pictures? Why are we getting up early for no reason? And why do I have so many new toys?"
To them it's just another day, but to us (Dusty & I), it's more exciting...it's our first Christmas with our babies, with our little family!!
3 years ago on Christmas day my life took a turn for the worst. Not only was I having problems with infertility, but my health took a dive, and I spent the day after Christmas in the hospital, then the next 2 years in and out of doctors offices and hospitals to try and figure out what was wrong. I won't get into all the details, but I'm better now, for the most part! Life goes on, and I'm so glad it does, cause I was giving up all hope on everything, including life. I didn't think I was ever going to get better, ever going to be a mommy, or ever going to be able to have a social life again. I constantly laid in bed cause of my health and it was causing major depression and really getting me down.
I am so thankful to have such an amazing husband. He spent so many nights holding me, taking care of me, was by my side at EVERY doctor visit, and never lost hope. Now each day I wake up to 3 amazing boys, a warm heart, a smile on my face, and for those blessings I am glad I never gave up.
As we go about this Christmas season, I hope everyone has a safe and happy Christmas holiday. I'm excited for Christmas this year, and that's something I haven't said for a few years. I'm glad things have changed and that I can wake up Christmas morning with a smile on my face and 2 baby boys and my hubby to spend Christmas with! Merry Christmas!!
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